Comfortable and female, you like it. It has turn into your companion. Palpable. Serene. Pretty. You could have a long-term relationship with solitude, which nearly by no means will get previous. So many individuals abhor solitude, likening it to loneliness, despair and even insanity. Particularly girls, who really feel others in methods you’ll by no means perceive.
Like many mother and father, Sarah fears the upcoming vacancy of her nest. She’s undecided you’ll be in it. And neither are you. However that was the least of it. The women. They’re her every thing. And shortly they are going to be gone. Remy was in school and the opposite two proper behind her. The women. Sarah answered to their infinite chirping like a calling. She lived deeply of their experiences, feeling each bruise, celebrating all victories, and worrying herself sick. How would she ever substitute that? With you? Please.
For you, it will not be an empty nest. It was solitude.
There’ll at all times be a wall between you and devotion. You constructed it for defense in opposition to cruelties, each actual and phantom. Over time, the mortar hardened. Now, it was just about impenetrable. Like your father, you finally surrendered to the truth that intimacy would by no means come to you the best way it did for others. And like your dad you discovered a method to compensate. You grew to become an underwriter. Enabling your loved ones to have deep and implausible experiences, even if you happen to couldn’t.