Comfortable and female, you love it. It has turn into your companion. Palpable. Serene. Beautiful. You’ve gotten a long-term relationship with solitude, which nearly by no means will get previous. So many individuals abhor solitude, likening it to loneliness, despair and even insanity. Particularly ladies, who really feel others in methods you’ll by no means perceive.
Like many dad and mom, Sarah fears the approaching vacancy of her nest. She’s unsure you’ll be in it. And neither are you. However that was the least of it. The ladies. They’re her the whole lot. And shortly they are going to be gone. Remy was in faculty and the opposite two proper behind her. The ladies. Sarah answered to their countless chirping like a calling. She lived deeply of their experiences, feeling each bruise, celebrating all victories, and worrying herself sick. How would she ever exchange that? With you? Please.
For you, it could not be an empty nest. It was solitude.
There’ll at all times be a wall between you and devotion. You constructed it for defense towards cruelties, each actual and phantom. Over time, the mortar hardened. Now, it was just about impenetrable. Like your father, you finally surrendered to the truth that intimacy would by no means come to you the way in which it did for others. And like your dad you discovered a method to compensate. You turned an underwriter. Enabling your loved ones to have deep and improbable experiences, even should you couldn’t.